Monday, September 29, 2025

something stirs when we meet this tree at the gardens and i think of pixies and elves and gnomes who live in the undergrowth and each root compartment becomes a magical room to live in or a workshop to tool in, on cool autumn evenings. thus are fairy stories born i think.

portrait (of reluctance)




here is E when he does not want to walk.

clearly a dog who knows what he does not want.

Sunday, September 28, 2025

national bird

the neighborhood parks are a-wash with 'em.

kills well with others - deanna raybourn (2025)




follows a couple years on after killers and just as satisfying. nail-biting edge-of-your-seat thrilling gore narrated in a girl-next-door i've-done-the-laundry tone. 

pleasurable escapism.

Wednesday, September 24, 2025

reno woes

1. stop work order 

2. main con sprains his back

3. a/c con punctures the water pipe

4. main con's grandma dies

5. super typhoon ragasa

and counting.

unless the LORD build the house, those who build it labor in vain.

Ps. 127:1

Sunday, September 21, 2025

public service announcement

after a week of categorically slower internet speeds HOM contacts M1 and then runs through a complex series of fruitless trouble-shooting over the next couple hours before the young man at the other end says, you need to upgrade your router firm-ware. at which HOM climbs to where we stash the router digs out the 8-year-old credentials and presses on the update button and voila! we are back in action!

all of this to say, always know where you squirrel away your device passwords and know what to do when the young man says you need to upgrade your firm-ware. either that, or you marry the local IT support guy.

Saturday, September 20, 2025

day's end

long day long week long months. the renovation drags on apace. HOM coughs on unabated. i cough along.

and yet God closes the day with gentleness and strength.

the family chao - lan samantha cheng (2022)


dystopian and surreal but also really compellingly written.

plodding and ponderous and also page-turningly tense.

the characters are truly unlikeable: the victim wholly deserves his desserts three out of four siblings are hypomanic or personality disordered and the hangers-on are unprepossessing and unreal.

the overarching theme appears to be the old wuxia revenge worked out in a western clime. if i were an asian immigrant to the u.s. this book would totally depress me.

splat

HOM scratches thru the nite.

he: i must be catching your chronic urticaria.

me: huh? <smashes a fat mosquito.>

Friday, September 19, 2025

Thursday, September 18, 2025

liquid glass

i guess the rest of the dark side is desperately trying to upgrade to 26 as well. as has HOM.

lapses

recently abandoned books:

the trust - m.c. eccleston (2022). i pick this up because the blurb says for fans of richard osman but she in no way writes with osman's flair.

the way of all flesh - ambrose perry (2018). wordy, like alphabet pea-soup.

the killer across the table - douglas & olshaker (2019). not sure what the writer is trying to achieve with a most uncharismatic subject.

people from my neighborhood - kawakami (2016). bizarre without kawaii. that's all.

the woman who wanted more - vicky zimmerman (2016). depressingly middle-class american. for recipes and food, stick to ruth reichl, i say.


in my seventh decade i no longer feel obligated to finish a book once i begin it.

Wednesday, September 17, 2025

oh look!

i discover a pretty hair clip in the deep recesses of the car.

me: nice! i must have dropped this some time back.

HOM: is that yours? i don't recall you having something like this.

me: is it not better that i should have lost something like this?

protein style

my favorite way of eating burgers! hitherto only on foreign soil*.


*found it at carl's burgers star vista today. not exactly budget friendly, but it satisfies some urges.

Tuesday, September 16, 2025

rental person who does nothing - s. morimoto (2023)

fascinating and quirky ode to that lifelong dream of mine, to do nothing.

morimoto is unapologetically vegetative in his approach to exertion and involvement. the fascinating bit is how he strikes a chord in so many souls who take pleasure in helping him do nothing. the quirky bit is the unexpected nature of his many endeavors: providing a warm body to file divorce papers with or being the recipient of rambling monologues or simply being a human alarm clock. for someone so against the tide of industry he is insightful and warm in his observations of human nature.

what i don't understand is how he ever exerted himself enough to marry his wife.

piano strings

another couple strings snap in the piano. this is happening with painful regularity.

and yet it is greatly beloved well treasured and lovingly played, this stately beauty of ours.

even if the piano tuner knows us better than most other people.

old song

God and God alone created all these things we call our own
from the mighty to the small the glory in them all is God's and God's alone

God and God alone is fit to take the universe's throne
let everything that lives reserve its truest praise for God and God alone

God and God alone reveals the truth of all we call unknown
and the best and worst of men won't change the Master's plan
it's God's and God's alone

- phil mchugh

flipping thru my old song sheets and found this. painfully and comfortingly apt in the face of turmoil and mindless oppression.

Monday, September 15, 2025

remainders of the day - shaun bythell (2022)


done ten months of another year in bythell's life and here is what i think:

  • i love his light touch and snarky wit. much more attractive than earnest pedantry and significant less common
  • here's a chronically sleep-deprived middle-aged fellow in unusually good health, from the sounds of his non-health issues 
  • the ongoing leakages / gutter blockages / boiler malfunctions etc. put our renovation trials into perspective

Sunday, September 14, 2025

optics

i'm not saying E is unaffectionate or unengaged. no sirree. he enthusiastically licks our post-workout bodies like we forgot to feed him last nite. he has been known to protest pee on the rug when we bring out the suitcases once too often. he waits patiently for both of us to retire before he himself enters the bedroom at nite. and then he carefully apportions his time between both sides of the bed.

but there's one thing for sure. when we are all together his preferred posture is to turn his back on us.

Saturday, September 13, 2025

evening walk

after the rain and along the canal.

it occurs to me that the sides of the canal are well irrigated by canal water these days and sprout sporadic tufts of exuberant vegetation. faintly resembling some body parts.

acronyms

a linguistic guide to communications.

kbt - kaya butter toast

fkt - fried kway teow (although my friends prefer ckt for char kway teow)

ytf - yong tau foo

pb - peanut butter

xlb - xiao long bao

dtf - din tai fung


all food related, as best as i can recall.

Friday, September 12, 2025

he's back!

the day's most quiet needs.

shingrix 1

the body aches the head hurts the arm wants to drop off.

ouchhhhh (gingerly)

i am seriously considering abandoning dose 2.

weather report

i meet the usual bare-chested guy who runs the route i walk. he is wearing a singlet today. it's getting cooler.

Thursday, September 11, 2025

perspective

i miss my usual bus stop this morning and tumble out at the next stop all groggy-like to begin my speed walk back to civilization. everything looks unfamiliar and new and different until i realize i am looking at the dear old building from the opposite direction to how i normally look at it. (duh!) maybe one should miss one's stop from time to time, if only to acquire a new prospect.

in other news, i miss the bus in the rain this evening owing to texting on the phone. that sinking feeling is so déjà vu. 

in a ditty, what i do for work today:

on the way in, i miss my stop

on the way out, i miss my bus

Wednesday, September 10, 2025

the time of the year

there are different books for different seasons.

there are books for when i am energetic and willing to plow thru concepts ideas and reflections. like c.s.lewis or bonhoeffer or kalainithi or atul gawande. there are books that are little disposable throwaways to fill distracted gaps in the day. like rom coms and chick lit. although some turn out to be little gems, like katie fforde and maeve binchy. there are the modern asian books, often translated, polished heartwarming bagatelles. and hard core murder stories where the bad guys get a thumping comeuppance. these are my comfort genre.

finally there are books to read when the weather cools and the year's end approaches and i think of cinnamon hot chocolate autumn colors and warm clothes. this is one of them. the final season of the year is starting to start!

newspaper guy

because he is too swarthy to be called newspaper boy.

time was when he showed up in the early hours on his bicycle with precarious towers of daily news and held up one elevator car going floor to floor flinging them out. you walked the dog around his timing to avoid becoming hostage to the never-coming elevator.

these days he shows up a wee bit later on his shiny red motorcycle a shorter tower and is done in under the time it takes me and E to dawdle up the slope.

the times they are a'changin'. what surprises me is that the papers they are still a'comin'.

Tuesday, September 9, 2025

vera wang's unsolicited advice for murderers - jesse q. sutanto (2023)


rip-roaringly hilarious heartwarming and delicious detective-story-friendship-journey-minor-rom-com-foodie-document featuring the mother of all chinese tiger mothers.

i enjoy this from the moment vera marches out of her apartment to take her morning constitutional and the dénouement when it comes is all the more satisfying for being expected and so-unexpected.

excuse me while i go and hunt out more of susanto's books.

banana bread

is just an excuse to eat guzzle butter.

yes i confess!
but HOM's b-bread, based on J2's recipe, is really rather good.

Monday, September 8, 2025

solo

HOM travels without me, which is a rarer occurrence these days. this makes for solitary dinners and a cold bed. it's a good thing i still have E's company and a good appetite.

Sunday, September 7, 2025

l'inattendu

a reminder that my day needs to make space for the unexpected unplanned unsought unforeseen and unscheduled, just as Someone makes space for unprepared and unworthy me. 

morning walk

september downpour
drenched and squelching

the end of the year approaches! yeah! (brrr)

Saturday, September 6, 2025

bao er cafe, holland v

as a kid we said, best.
as youth, we said, solid.
today i inhale and enjoy. yummo.

bodies

we meet a posse of young-ish runners this morning. 

here are two thoughts they inspire:

  • one young man running shirtless is ok, especially if he has a nicely developed six-pack
  • a posse of men running shirtless is overpowering, especially if they are a little endowed
that's the polite version of my thoughts.

Friday, September 5, 2025

how medicine works - f. perry wilson (2023)


useful and readable introduction to evidence appraisal. with a dash of faintly maudlin idealism thrown in. but he is generally charmingly likeable and i've enjoyed his medscape columns in the past.

it makes for a refreshing change from elderhood which if you recall suffers from much depressing verbosity.

Wednesday, September 3, 2025

new kaya toast joint*

crispy toast dripping kaya cold butter
especially abundant cold butter
BETTER THAN YAKUN
yesssss

*bao er cafe

Monday, September 1, 2025

lost in space

i receive greetings for a non-existent birthday from a professional organization i no longer belong to.

failure of information management, if you ask me.